Here we are after so many years still trying to work things out. God has neither brought us completely together however he's neither torn us completely apart. We know we are here by his Grace and I believe he's given us that Grace because one day and it may be soon it will be for his Glory... My focus on my family has changed since I have been praying for God to put us together. In the beginning it was for me I wanted my family because well that was how it was supposed to be. A mom a dad and the little children, I wanted him to work, bring home the bacon and for myself, I would have the happy little American dream. Stability, normalcy, an ordinary uneventful life. however that was not in God's plan for me. I quickly realized this, along with realizing that there was a darker force which wanted to keep me from my American dream. Later I saw that it was not my American dream but Gods plan to use me in this life to bring glory to his name. When I caught this vision my drive and desires changed, I no longer desire for God to put my family together for my sake of saying I'm married and have a husband, but for the mission of seeing God use our completely broken life to bring Glory to himself. When my focus changed I realized no matter what I could not quit. So here I am, waiting in the wings of Almighty God. Knowing that my desires are his desires and He will fulfill the desires of my heart..
